很长很长的故事,不知道有没有人可以看完

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很长很长的故事,不知道有没有人可以看完

</p><p><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">我爱西敏，深爱，从见他的第一眼起。相比于我身边的那些男孩，他是一个男人。男人如同璞玉，只有经过岁月的磨砺，才会发出润泽的光芒。现在的西敏，以一个女人的眼光看，他价值不菲。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">第一次见西敏，我</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">22</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">岁，他</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">28</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">岁。那是一个小型家庭聚会，是同事的先生为一个朋友举行的接风宴，那个人就是西敏。他结束了五年的海外工作，刚刚回国。彼时的西敏，高大的身材，宽宽的臂膀，俊朗的容貌；气质成熟、坚毅且带有淡淡书卷气。西敏不苟言谈，接风宴仿佛与他无关。静静地看着欢声笑语的男男女女，眼光似有若无地在我身上流连。偶尔四目交接，他会温和地笑笑。聚会结束，西敏送我回家。同事笑脸相送，暧昧而得意。我方知中计。如果此生可以重来，我仍然愿意，只要对方仍是西敏。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">那天花好月圆，与西敏一路走回，说了些什么已记不清楚。西敏说那时我快乐得像只小鸟。我们的故事自那天开始。西敏像一个春日的草场，和他在一起如沐春风，和煦而温厚。那时我才知道自己原来可以柔情似水人，自己原来可以小鸟依人，原来心甘情愿被人宠爱的感觉如此美妙。能让他宠一辈子该多好！我时常会那样想。我第一次想到了要有一个自己的家，这个家里有我，有爱我的西敏。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">相识一个月以后，西敏开始装修房子。他自己住的那套房子，装修还算不错。问西敏为什么。西敏笑笑说：美化生活。却问我喜欢什么样的地板，什么样式的灯具、什么颜色的窗帘。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">相识二个月后，西敏向我求婚，并向我父母表达了他的请求。太快了，太意外了，这是我从来没有想到的，可仍是心花绽放。父母对西敏很满意，只是仍嫌时间仓促。母亲曾语重心长地说对我说：哲哲，这是你一辈子的大事，一定要慎重，况且你年纪还小。只记得那时自己对母亲说：我不相信时间的长短可以决定爱情和婚姻的幸福，婚姻是赌博，我愿意赌。对方是西敏，我胜算多些。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">至今，还佩服自己那时的果敢。真是初生牛犊不怕虎。如果现在给我这样的一个好男人，纵使有刀架在颈后，也要好好想一想。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">相识二个半月，我们订了婚。我是西敏人生中第一次真正意义上的恋爱，这是我没有想到的。这个摩羯座的、视事业为生命的男人，太珍惜自己的时间与自尊。他的心是一个坚实的城堡对进入城堡的人极端挑剔，而一旦接纳就会全身心开放。我是那个被他接纳的人。相识五个月，我们领了结婚证，是我</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">23</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">岁生日后的第四天。在民政局的门外我问西敏：你认定此生你想要的人是我？会不会哪天你遇到一个女人你对她说：此时我方知什么叫恋爱？我担心这个年近三十的男人为了结婚而结婚。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">西敏笑着问：我们中国人常说：男怕选错行，女怕嫁错郎。一辈子的大事你一定要小心。两人笑着拥在一起，领回了那个红色的小本本。那天我成为女人，西敏的女人。相识十个月，我们举行了婚礼。那时真得好快乐，他一切的一切我都爱。好爱，好爱！他的爱将我滋润成一个洋溢着万种柔情的美丽女子。睡梦中我会幸福地笑醒，醒后看着身边熟睡的男人，满足得难以言传。他的眉，他的眼，他的手，他的脚，他浓密的黑发</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">……</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">让我爱得难以自拨。我想为西敏生一个孩子，一个像他一样的男孩，有他的的眉，他的眼，他浓密的黑发，他的手</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">……</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br style="mso-special-character: line-break;"/><br style="mso-special-character: line-break;"/></span><br/></p>

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<p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt;"><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';">结婚一年多后，我们真的有了一个和西敏一模一样的男孩！这个男孩英俊、活泼、健康、开朗。我幸福地感激天地间的诸神，命运待我太厚！如今嫁给西敏八年了，我已由一个不谙世事的小女孩成为一个可以独挡一面的女人，我们的儿子已经快七岁了，我再也不是那个抱着小孩子手足无措，一脸泪花的小女人。生命中有一大一小两个男人爱着我，叫我如何不幸福。幸福写满我的眼角眉梢，洋溢在我的周身，它是我最美丽的羽衣霓裳。岁月流逝，我和西敏的情感更加深厚，他成为了我的血液、我的心脏、我的四肢。生活中我们是夫妻、是朋友、是父女、是母子、是兄妹</span><font face="Times New Roman">……</font><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';">是世间所有亲密的相亲相爱的人。我是寄生在他生命中的女人，盘枝错结地从他的爱里汲取着生命的养份。</span><br/><br/><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';">然而岁月也无声地将我们的爱变成了涓涓细流，不再有往日的激情澎湃。对激情的渴望，却如同蛰伏已久冬虫对春天的向住，有身心蠢蠢欲动。一次，做爱完毕，我笑着问西敏：有没有觉得日子过得太无趣？做爱都不再有激情？</span><br/><br/><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';">西敏答道：生活就应该是这样吧！我笑着问他：现在拉着我的手，感觉是不是左手拉右手？他笑着说：不是，是左手拉着脚趾头。我笑着捶他。</span><br/><br/><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';">忽然想起前几天和朋友聚会时的一件事：周末晚上我们几个无话不说的女人在酒吧聊天。</span><font face="Times New Roman">Silliana</font><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';">接到老公的电话，笑着对老公说说：你这个人好无耻，自己吃喝玩乐，怎么倒让我付钱？！说着起身要走。我好奇地看着她，她说等我回来再告诉你。</span><br/><br/><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';">半个小时后，</span><font face="Times New Roman">Silliana</font><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';">回来，在我耳边悄悄耳语：原来他老公和几个朋友在外面叫小姐，带的现金不够，偏偏取款机又坏了。只能烦劳老婆送现金过去。</span><font face="Times New Roman">Silliana</font><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';">看着眼睛睁得大大、一言不发的我，拍我一下：干什么啦你，发神经！我问她：你不在乎？她笑笑摇摇头。看得出她是真正的不在乎。</span><font face="Times New Roman">“</font><span lang="ZH-CN" style="COLOR: #cc99ff; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';">没有必要把问题看得那么严重，夫妻做的时间久了，多无聊啊，一辈子守着一个人，如一辈子只吃一道菜，山珍海味也会腻。</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';">由他玩去好了，总不成让他在外面养小秘啊。我们这个样子很好啊，像哥们儿一样，无话不说的。说实话，我不在乎他在外面玩，玩回来之后他还是我的。我<span style="COLOR: #cc99ff;">在乎他说谎骗我，两人隔了心，是最无趣的事情</span>，那时我倒真地不知道他是谁的了。</span><font face="Times New Roman">”Silliana</font><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';">说道，仿佛至情至理。把这件事讲给西敏听，问他怎么看这件事。西敏说可以理解，</span><font face="Times New Roman">silliana</font><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';">的做法未尝没有道理。为什么？</span><br/><br/><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';">西敏说：她想完整拥有的是男人的灵魂，金钱和身体倒是相对次要的，因为在经济上你们是独立的。而对于很大一部分女人来说，这个问题会危及到她们整个生活。这种事从传统伦理道德角度来说，似乎是不可饶恕的，但是也会因人而异，毕竟道德的尺度也不是一成不变的；<span style="COLOR: #cc99ff;">而从人性的角度来说是可以理解的，因为人类最原始的特征就是动物性嘛，喜新厌旧差不多是与生俱来的。现在的社会对人性的束缚越来越小，所以有这种发生也是可以理解的。</span></span><br/><br/><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';">我笑着问西敏：你呢，想过别的女人吗？西敏西笑笑，认真地说：想过。不过更多地是欣赏，比如欣赏一枝花，欣赏一道风景。</span><font face="Times New Roman">“</font><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';">那有没有想过找个情人？</span><font face="Times New Roman">”</font><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';">我笑问。</span><font face="Times New Roman">“</font><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';">没有。</span><font face="Times New Roman">”</font></p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman'; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">“</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">为什么？</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman'; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">”<br/>“</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">因为没有好女人。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman'; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">”</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">西敏微笑着说。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman'; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/>“</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">那你想要的女人是什么样的？</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman'; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">”<br/>“</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">不能比你差。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman'; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">”</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">西敏笑着将我揽在怀里。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman'; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/>“</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">那你是找老婆还是找情人？哦，如果有了别忘了告诉我，帮你参谋一下。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman'; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">”<br style="mso-special-character: line-break;"/><br style="mso-special-character: line-break;"/></span>

很长很长的故事,不知道有没有人可以看完

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很长很长的故事,不知道有没有人可以看完

<br/><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">我扯着西敏的耳朵，说道。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">“</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">有没有女人对你主动出击？</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">”<br/>“</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">你满脑子装的是什么？是不是想红杏出墙？</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">”</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">西敏轻拍着我的头。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/>“</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">有合适的，试试无妨。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">”</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">恃宠撒娇，半真半假。日子着实过得太过风平浪静，一个在春日的阳光下闲坐太久会困，而我的睡眠已经太多了。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/>“</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">有目标了吗？</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">”</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">西敏调侃我。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/>“</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">没有啊。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">”<br/>“</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">哦，那注意，要找个事业有成，年轻有为，英俊潇洒，有奔驰有豪宅的。退休工人，拥有二室一厅的住房，承诺每日为你买油条豆浆的就不要考虑了。我丢不起那个人。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">”</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">我抱起枕头去敲他的头，两个人笑得扑在了床上。西敏问我：陈朗呢，不是很合适吗？</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">“</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">你少乱说，要是可以给他做情人，早就嫁给他了。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">”</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">我正颜道。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">陈朗是我大学时的师哥，高我两届。读的是经济管理，诗词功底胜过汉语言文学系的学生，自曰豪放派传人。据说开学伊始就因几首诗词镇住了文学社里的元老，二年级时文学社至其麾下。三年级时，陈朗辞去文学社社长，号称不忍俗务缠身。平日的陈朗不修边幅，留长发，蓄胡须，不知底系的人还以为他是学艺术的，好在他长得人高马大，仪容尚算整洁。标新立异的陈朗是青春期女生的焦点。可陈朗对身边的女孩的评语只有一个字：俗。入校的舞会上，他第一个请我跳舞，舞会结束时他对我说：你清纯得像朵莲。<span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman'; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/></span></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">从此他的目光就锁定了我，发起了疯狂的进攻，用尽了他能想尽的一切办法讨好我。甚至剪掉了那头让他自鸣得意的长发和胡须。只因为我说我不喜欢标新立异的男人。陈朗的一言一行尽管给了我很多感动，但我的爱却拒他于千里之外，我不能让自己爱上他，爱和喜欢于我是泾渭分明的。我始终视他如知己好友。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">陈朗始终不能理解我的感受，他相信喜欢一定可以变成爱。我的拒绝在他心里打下了一个深深的铬印：他没有征服我！这一结果对于争强好胜的他来说无疑是无法接受的，这世上没有陈朗得不到的，包括感情。一场表面看来风花雪月的故事最后就演变成了一场征服与反征服明争暗斗的游戏。他将我</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">“</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">归顺</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">”</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">的形式看得重于得到我的感情。到我结婚为止，陈朗阴魂不散地在我身边四年。这四年中我蜻蜓点水般的两个男朋友，最后全因陈朗的存在而烟消云散。好在我自己对这两个人也不是十分满意，懒得追回。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">还记得我对他说我要订婚时他那一脸的错愕。随即嘻皮笑脸地问：对方是我吗？我没有理他。看我一脸认真地样子，他急了：哲哲，你疯了？你在开玩笑？见我还不说话，他急了，说究竟何方神圣，让你见了两个月就要嫁给人家。最终他还是见到了西敏。看到西敏时，他的眼神渐渐黯淡，西敏根本不把他当对手，宽容地看他表现。即便是我也觉出了陈朗的尴尬。晚上，我接到陈朗的电话。哲哲，我爱你，我爱你这么多年，求你给我一个机会，不要订婚。求你给我一个公平竞争的机会，再等我两年，我一定会比程西敏出色。我们认识四年多，我追你四年多，难道真得抵不上你与程西敏相识两个月。求你，哲哲！看着出，陈朗是真地急了。他像一个无助的孩子，绝望而不甘。可是除了感动，我</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">……</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">我真地不知道该说什么，我的心里装得满满得都是西敏！西敏！西敏！我不知该如何拒绝这个男人，让他保留自尊，少一些伤心，陈朗读懂了我心底的纷繁。他沉默良久，长叹一声将电话挂断。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; 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<span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">再见陈朗已是六年之后。六年，在生儿育女、买房买车的生活琐事里消磨，陈朗如前世的风景，偶尔如云烟般掠过记忆，惊不起任何波澜，甚至涟漪。见他，是偶然。那天是月中，杂志要交稿排版，一个编辑急病住院，计划中一个人物专访不得不由我这个编辑部主任来赶。那天我匆匆忙忙地拿着采访大纲，赶到一位沪上成功人士的公司。秘书把我接进办公室。不期然见到的竟是陈朗，一个成竹在胸，意气风发的男人。陈朗目不转睛地注视着我，许久之后冒出一句话：那个山清水秀的宋哲哲哪里去了？人人说我风情万种，成熟优雅，美丽迷人，独他要我的</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">“</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">山清水秀</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">”</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">，独他在乎我的</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">“</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">山清水秀</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">”</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">趁秘书小姐上茶，我赶紧翻看手中的采访提纲。看到的竟是陈朗的简短介绍，采访的问题是您眼中什么样的女人最有魅力；你的爱情观是什么；您的婚姻观是什么等诸如此类的问题。我暗暗叫苦，在杂志社从小编作起，到今天编辑部主任，也可谓阅人众多，何时我不是精心披挂上阵。今天是一场无准备的战斗，不打也罢。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">我主动弃甲，回家替他杜撰好了。纵使有错，谅他也不会见怪。陈朗拿过采访大纲，随手翻翻，说：我不需要爱情，更不要婚姻，还有什么想知道？我噤若寒蝉，我欠他的。至少我心里一直内疚，人生没有几个四年可以为他人消磨。欠一个人四年的感情，我不敢说我一身轻松。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">之后，陈朗时常约我，喝茶或者吃饭，无非讲述这几年的生活，讲身边朋友，讲他工作的快乐与艰辛。陈朗的目光是暧昧的，我只当不知。在心底，我和陈朗是相互平行的两条轨道，我们可以并肩走到永远。一旦重合，结果只能使我们相互背离，越来越远。纵使我是一个正在失去魔力的阿修罗，我仍不愿做他征服后弃掉的那一个。那时他将视我如敝履。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">陈朗带在身边的女子走马灯般地更换，个个山清水秀，却无人可以走入他的生命。他</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">“</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">山清水秀</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">”</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">的情结不是随便一个女子可以解得开的，包括现在的我。现在的我不是他想要的宋哲哲。有时他会玩笑着问我，哲哲，给我做情人。我会笑笑：我没那么傻。他也笑笑。彼此的心事，对方都了然于心。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">对我和陈朗的约会，西敏是泰然自若的，他的信任让我不知应该感动还是悲哀。半年以后我见到了方晓晓。那天是</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">“</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">情人节</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">”</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">，这么多年来我和西敏一直在衡山路一个不起眼的叫</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">“</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">心情故事</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">”</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">的酒吧里过</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">“</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">情人节</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">”</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">。那天西敏说有事要晚些到，约了</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">10</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">点钟见面。他晚到</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">15</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">分钟，依旧送我最爱的香水百合。西敏身上有淡淡的酒气，说是刚和朋友一起吃过饭。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">这已经是我们过的第九个情人节了，每年这个日子我们都会一起过，久而久之似乎成了一个和结婚纪念日一样重要的日子，可越来越变成了一种形式。想想这个日子真的不过是个形式，相爱的人不会因为有了这个日子更加相爱的，不相爱的人的也不会因为这个日子变得相爱起来的。像刚才进来的那个漂亮的女孩子，情人节还不是失魂落魄的，独坐一隅？她在等她的男朋友，还是刚和男朋友吵过架？</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; 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<span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';">和西敏有一搭没一搭地聊着，夫妻在这种地方聊天真是不合时宜，两人熟悉得一举手一投足，都可以被对方知道下文，哪里需要聊天。眼角如若真能装扮点含情脉脉，反倒是一件可笑的事。已经十一点了，我提议回家。那个失恋的女孩不停地打量我，感觉怪怪的。结好帐，和西敏起身向外走。只听见服务生说：小姐，您是不是忘了买单？闻声回过头，只见那个女孩，正随着我们一起向外走，痴痴地注视着西敏。西敏看到女孩，眼中闪过一片慌乱。尽管那慌乱稍纵即逝，无奈我知他太深。女孩回服务台结账，西敏转头携着我继续向外走去。我依旧回头看那个女孩。女孩望着西敏的背影，眼底涌上令人不忍卒读的绝望，她无力地用服务台支撑住身体。女孩的失魂落魄和绝望与西敏有关！直觉告诉我。这直觉如毒液迅速地渗入血液，身体瞬间变得冰凉、麻木。那感觉让我窒息。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman'; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br style="mso-special-character: line-break;"/><br style="mso-special-character: line-break;"/></span>

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<p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt;"><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">默默地和西敏走出了酒吧，坐进车里。我不能思维，不能言语，不能呼吸。用眼角的余光看西敏，他看着前方，手紧紧地握着方向盘，他并不轻松。快到家时，西敏忽然问我：哲哲，看到我手机了吗？这个男人一路神思不属的，现在竟然用出这种小计谋。没有。我淡淡地答道。大概掉在酒吧了。西敏说。哲哲，你先打个车回家，我回去找找。我隐忍着，用残存的一点点理智提醒自己：宋哲哲，别逞一时之快，在想出万全之策之前别说话。千万别乱说话。放他走，那个女孩可能会出事的。是的，纵使她是我的敌人，她眼中的绝望仍然让我担忧。我们是两个同样绝望的女人，为同一个男人所伤。</span><br/><br/><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">西敏送我上了出租车，开车掉头回去。下了车，推开院门，无力地坐在凉亭的木椅上。门厅里的灯孤孤单单地亮着。儿子和保姆房间的灯都已经熄了。狗房里那只叫噜噜的导盲犬发出轻轻的鼾声，这个世界好寂静，寂静得只剩下了找不到自己的我。麻木的心一点点地复苏，越来越痛，痛得渗血。西敏你怎能如此待我？！你怎能如此待我？！心底有一个声音在呐喊，绝望而无助。在雨中呆呆地坐了许久，直到看到西敏的车驶进住宅区，我才快速进了家。我不愿面对他，我避他如瘟疫。可究竟谁是谁的瘟疫啊？</span><br/><br/><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">我们这座位于上海西区的别墅，曾是沪上最知名的设计师最为得意的作品，屋里的摆设一桌一几，一草一木，无一不是匠心独具。这座房子给了我很多快乐。可是，如果这座房子里没有了西敏，没有了爱，一切于我有何意义啊？我上楼，进了儿子的房间。儿子在梦里甜甜地笑着，小脸红扑扑的。他已经长成了一个可爱的小男子汉。握着儿子小小的、柔软而温暖的手，我的心开始慢慢平静，这里似乎是我心灵唯一的避风港。他可以将我心底所有的纷繁平息。西敏轻轻地推门进来，走到儿子身边。轻轻地抚摸着儿子的额头，亲昵地说小东西。我依旧注视着儿子，不肯面对这个故作镇静的男人。我是那么地不愿意看到身边这个男人的脸，包括闻到他的气息。</span><br/><br/><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">我问他手机找到了吗？他说根本就没有丢，掉在座位下了，没有发现。一个将谎言的责任都看得如此沉重的男人，其它的责任他如何背负得起？真难为他。西敏拿着换洗衣物到浴室去洗澡。我换好睡衣下楼。客厅茶几上有西敏的手机，他习惯把手机每晚放在这里充电。打开手机找到已拨出电话，看到的是方晓晓、晓晓家，这些电话是我下车以后打出的，一个接一个。这大概就是那个女孩子的电话吧。我无意识地按下拨出键，手机关机，家里电话没人接听。即使接通了除了沉默又能如何？我将电话号码记下来，结束这种无聊的行为，转身上楼。</span><br/><br/><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">西敏已洗完澡，正在进行睡前的最后一道程序：阅读。手里拿着我昨晚读的一本小说</span><font face="Times New Roman">——</font><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">杜拉斯的《情人》，是倒的。西敏，《情人》拿倒了！我提醒他，轻描淡写，字字如针。西敏紧张地哦了一声，心神不定地看我一眼。我心底冷笑。嘴里却轻轻地说：书拿倒了。那一夜，我在自己的书房里睡的。以前赶稿，为了不影响西敏休息，晚了就在书房的小床上睡。今夜我不想面对这个男人。不知以后是不是还会这样。</span><br/><br/><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">一夜辗转，天快亮的时候，我才迷迷糊糊睡着。梦里见到的全是方晓晓绝望的眼睛，心痛得却是我，彻骨地痛，痛得窒息。醒来已近中午，西敏已不在，上班去了。这个男人，他何尝不可怜，明明一夜忐忑，却还要若无其事地人前出现，不敢露出丝毫异样。睡眠于我一向是治病良药，可以让我忘掉很多如乱麻一样的思绪。窗外眼光满眼，我穿衣起床，有一个想法在心底疯长：我要见方晓晓！电视电影里，妻子见情人的场景一向让我不屑于顾。我告诉自己：我爱的人变了心，我会拂袖而去，我会抛弃整个世界，永远消失在他的世界里。我丢掉了爱人，不能丢掉自尊。这种想法从我看得懂感情戏时就这样想。可现在我决定要去看方晓晓。我要见这个女孩，我要知道自己是</span><font face="Times New Roman">“</font><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">伤</span><font face="Times New Roman">”</font><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">在一个什么样的人手中。我开车到外面找到一个公用电话亭，打电话。电话是打到方晓晓手机上的，响了很久才有人接听。</span></p>

sunny

<p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt;"><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">默默地和西敏走出了酒吧，坐进车里。我不能思维，不能言语，不能呼吸。用眼角的余光看西敏，他看着前方，手紧紧地握着方向盘，他并不轻松。快到家时，西敏忽然问我：哲哲，看到我手机了吗？这个男人一路神思不属的，现在竟然用出这种小计谋。没有。我淡淡地答道。大概掉在酒吧了。西敏说。哲哲，你先打个车回家，我回去找找。我隐忍着，用残存的一点点理智提醒自己：宋哲哲，别逞一时之快，在想出万全之策之前别说话。千万别乱说话。放他走，那个女孩可能会出事的。是的，纵使她是我的敌人，她眼中的绝望仍然让我担忧。我们是两个同样绝望的女人，为同一个男人所伤。</span><br/><br/><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">西敏送我上了出租车，开车掉头回去。下了车，推开院门，无力地坐在凉亭的木椅上。门厅里的灯孤孤单单地亮着。儿子和保姆房间的灯都已经熄了。狗房里那只叫噜噜的导盲犬发出轻轻的鼾声，这个世界好寂静，寂静得只剩下了找不到自己的我。麻木的心一点点地复苏，越来越痛，痛得渗血。西敏你怎能如此待我？！你怎能如此待我？！心底有一个声音在呐喊，绝望而无助。在雨中呆呆地坐了许久，直到看到西敏的车驶进住宅区，我才快速进了家。我不愿面对他，我避他如瘟疫。可究竟谁是谁的瘟疫啊？</span><br/><br/><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">我们这座位于上海西区的别墅，曾是沪上最知名的设计师最为得意的作品，屋里的摆设一桌一几，一草一木，无一不是匠心独具。这座房子给了我很多快乐。可是，如果这座房子里没有了西敏，没有了爱，一切于我有何意义啊？我上楼，进了儿子的房间。儿子在梦里甜甜地笑着，小脸红扑扑的。他已经长成了一个可爱的小男子汉。握着儿子小小的、柔软而温暖的手，我的心开始慢慢平静，这里似乎是我心灵唯一的避风港。他可以将我心底所有的纷繁平息。西敏轻轻地推门进来，走到儿子身边。轻轻地抚摸着儿子的额头，亲昵地说小东西。我依旧注视着儿子，不肯面对这个故作镇静的男人。我是那么地不愿意看到身边这个男人的脸，包括闻到他的气息。</span><br/><br/><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">我问他手机找到了吗？他说根本就没有丢，掉在座位下了，没有发现。一个将谎言的责任都看得如此沉重的男人，其它的责任他如何背负得起？真难为他。西敏拿着换洗衣物到浴室去洗澡。我换好睡衣下楼。客厅茶几上有西敏的手机，他习惯把手机每晚放在这里充电。打开手机找到已拨出电话，看到的是方晓晓、晓晓家，这些电话是我下车以后打出的，一个接一个。这大概就是那个女孩子的电话吧。我无意识地按下拨出键，手机关机，家里电话没人接听。即使接通了除了沉默又能如何？我将电话号码记下来，结束这种无聊的行为，转身上楼。</span><br/><br/><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">西敏已洗完澡，正在进行睡前的最后一道程序：阅读。手里拿着我昨晚读的一本小说</span><font face="Times New Roman">——</font><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">杜拉斯的《情人》，是倒的。西敏，《情人》拿倒了！我提醒他，轻描淡写，字字如针。西敏紧张地哦了一声，心神不定地看我一眼。我心底冷笑。嘴里却轻轻地说：书拿倒了。那一夜，我在自己的书房里睡的。以前赶稿，为了不影响西敏休息，晚了就在书房的小床上睡。今夜我不想面对这个男人。不知以后是不是还会这样。</span><br/><br/><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">一夜辗转，天快亮的时候，我才迷迷糊糊睡着。梦里见到的全是方晓晓绝望的眼睛，心痛得却是我，彻骨地痛，痛得窒息。醒来已近中午，西敏已不在，上班去了。这个男人，他何尝不可怜，明明一夜忐忑，却还要若无其事地人前出现，不敢露出丝毫异样。睡眠于我一向是治病良药，可以让我忘掉很多如乱麻一样的思绪。窗外眼光满眼，我穿衣起床，有一个想法在心底疯长：我要见方晓晓！电视电影里，妻子见情人的场景一向让我不屑于顾。我告诉自己：我爱的人变了心，我会拂袖而去，我会抛弃整个世界，永远消失在他的世界里。我丢掉了爱人，不能丢掉自尊。这种想法从我看得懂感情戏时就这样想。可现在我决定要去看方晓晓。我要见这个女孩，我要知道自己是</span><font face="Times New Roman">“</font><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">伤</span><font face="Times New Roman">”</font><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">在一个什么样的人手中。我开车到外面找到一个公用电话亭，打电话。电话是打到方晓晓手机上的，响了很久才有人接听。</span></p>

sunny

很长很长的故事,不知道有没有人可以看完

<br/><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">请问是不是方晓晓方小姐？</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">我是。对方的女子似乎虚脱。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">方小姐，这里是风信子花店，有一位程先生为您定了一束花，我们想知道您的送花地址。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">小姐请你告诉那位程先生，我不接受他的花，请他不要再打扰我，今生今世我不会再</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">见他。方晓晓声音倦倦的，字字用尽全身气力。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">方小姐，程先生已经留下花款离开了，而且也没留下联系方式，请您务必把您的地址</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">给我好吗？</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">方晓晓不耐烦地报出了地址，是一个写字楼的。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">我到花店里订了一束百合，和西敏昨天送我的一模一样。我将花店里的送花的女孩载到方晓晓说的地址，嘱咐她上楼送花。女孩上去不久就下来，依旧抱着那束花。对我说：那位小姐签收了，看了看花，就让我把花拿出去扔掉。接过花，给女孩小费让她离去。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">望着手里的花，我笑笑，这束花本来也不该是她的。百合花一向是西敏送我的，我不相信他会送别的女人这样的花。他说只有我才配得上百合。可是现在，现在</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">……</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">在他的心里我是什么？一枝正在凋谢的百合？我将手中的百合轻轻地撕碎，花香和着细碎的花片凌落了整个车厢。这是我的百合。下班时分，我再次见到了方晓晓，随着下班的人流，从写字楼里走了出来。精致的黑色套装，白衬衣，乌黑的长发，一脸的憔悴也掩不住的靓丽。置身于人流之中，如钻石闪着耀目的光芒</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;">.</span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">我见犹怜，何况西敏？方晓晓，让我看到了自己日渐逝去的青春。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">相信人与人之间有磁场吗？隔着几米远，方晓晓看到了车里的我，她定然感受到了我的目光。她显然吃了一惊，不知所措地站住了。我看着她，脸上无惊无喜、无嗔无怨，将她上上下下地不温不火打量了近半分钟，如一个不相干的人，在马路上见到一个漂亮的女孩子。然后我将眼光调开，转向进出的大大小小的白领，仿佛我在等人。方晓晓以为自己认错了人，长长地嘘了口气，起身离去。那一晚到凌晨二点多我才回到家。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">看过方晓晓之后，绝望与不安一直包围着我，心底有个声音诚惶诚恐追问：怎么办，怎么办？我驱车漫无目的地走，只想远离喧嚣，让心澄净下来，可以将思绪整理清楚。直到发现夜幕笼罩，我才发现自己驶到了一个陌生的地方。我迷了路！将车停在路边，周围是大片的农田和水塘，远处有影影绰绰的灯光，身边不时有高速驶过的大货车，车上不时地会有男人轻浮地抛出一些不堪入耳的污言秽语。天空已经飘起了细细的雨，阴冷而潮湿。我调头向来路开去。开出去不远，到了一个三岔路口。路牌上的路名我一个也不认识。我是在哪里，我应该何去何从？蓦然之间发现自己是如此得进退维谷，如此得无援无助。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">我拿起手机，拨西敏的手机，拨到一半停了下来。心里有一个声音在问：他还是你的避风港吗？你还愿意让这样的一个人呵护你吗？我合上手机，泪顺着双颊无声地滑落。愿又如何？不愿又如何？我真能因为方晓晓的事割舍自己与他之间的一切吗？曾经我们是两棵互不相干的植株，可是现在我们已经彼此盘根错节地长在一起良久，我中有他，他中有我，根茎已不分彼此。如何分开？分开的这种痛，我能承受得起吗？西敏能承受得起吗？呆坐了许久，打电话给陈朗，这似乎是我唯一可以寻求帮助的人。电话接通后，我唤了声陈朗，声音就开始哽咽。陈朗急急地问我怎么啦。我控制着声音说：我迷路了，我不知道自己在哪里。他难以置信地说你怎么了。我重复了一遍。他确定之后，详细地问我周围有哪些标志性建筑，有哪些路标，然后他说让我把车停到一个安全的地方，等他。确认我听清之后，陈朗才挂断电话。</span>

sunny

很长很长的故事,不知道有没有人可以看完

<br/><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">把车停在路边，似乎没有什么太安全的地方，来来往往的都是急着赶路的车，从车边呼啸而过。我的车就像一只缩在路边微不足道的小虫，随时都会被丧身车下。如果此时撒手人寰未尝不是一种解脱，什么都无需再去面对。我拨通西敏的手机，调匀呼吸，尽量使自己语气正常。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">话筒那端传来西敏的声音：哲哲，有事吗？</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">没事。他的语气让我不想说任何话。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">哲哲，我现在在开会，今晚回家恐怕会很晚。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">他在开会！这何尝不是他与另一个女子相会的借口？</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">我不出声，西敏喂了两声，又唤哲哲。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">我依旧沉默，将电话切断。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">两个多小时以后，陈朗找到了我，随他来的还有他的司机。出了什么事，你怎么跑到这个鬼地方？要不是老王以前在这一带跑运输，谁能找得到你！陈朗的急切从他的眼底读得出。原来我已经将车开到了一个离上海几百公里远的另一个省市的小城交通干道上。我坐在陈朗的车里，陈朗边开车边问我：到底出了什么事？我无言以对。说什么？西敏有外遇？西敏喜欢上了另一个女子？！手机响起，是西敏，我不想跟他说话，任由铃声在车里回响。电话挂断后不久又响起，如此反反复复。我把手机关掉。是不是西敏那里出问题了。陈朗问道。我沉默，疲倦地闭上了眼，眼泪控制不住地悄悄向下淌。陈朗不再追问，紧紧地握住我的手。我没有将手从他的大手中抽出，至少那里是温暖的。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">陈朗后来打破了一路的沉默。对我说：哲哲，<span style="COLOR: #cc99ff;">男人做的有些事，你可以把他看作小孩子犯错。相对于人的一生来说，婚姻是一条太过漫长的路，一点瑕疵没有是不可能的。要懂得退一步海阔天空的道理，你只退了一步，海还是你的，天也还是你的。有原则的原谅和包容，会让自己和其他人都快乐一些。</span>我对陈朗笑笑，这么多岁月毕竟不白白相与。</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体;"><br/><br/></span><span lang="ZH-CN" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">到家了，远远地看到西敏站在家门外，紧张不安地走来走去，直到看到我的车。陈朗和西敏互相点头致意，毕竟是场面上的两个男人，连招呼都打得不卑不亢。哲哲自己把车开到了江苏的一个不知名的地方，迷了路。陈朗一字一句地说，绵里藏针，却也将彼此开脱得清白。待老王在车库停好车，载陈朗离去。我和西敏一同进家门。西敏紧紧地握住我的手，唤声哲哲，欲言又止。望着西敏焦急的布满血丝的双眼，我的心一下温柔起来，鼻子不争气地酸起来。如果我还是二十三岁，我仍会一如既住地迷恋眼前这个男人。他沉着刚毅的书倦气，高大匀称健壮的四肢，俊朗的面容，再加上事业有成的光环。这不是一个普通的女子可以抗拒的。我紧紧地依在西敏宽阔的胸前，贪婪地呼吸着他的气息，四肢百骸开始苏醒，这种舒泰只有在他的怀里才会有。这个男人，我是如此地爱他，我爱他胜过爱自己，让我离开他，还不如让自己死去。我轻轻地唤了声西敏。泪就不争气地涌了出来，像一个受了委屈的小女孩。西敏喃喃地一遍遍地说着哲哲，对不起，对不起。那一夜躺在西敏的臂弯里沉沉睡去，一觉到天亮。我已知道自己该何去何从。</span>